
So, I blog often about internet/computer addiction and because I feel like being on the computer seems to take over my whole day I have decided to give it up for a whole day.
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I don’t like being all Negative Nancy on this blog, but lately I’ve been down in the dumps.
I’d like to blame it on the gray weather but I know it’s more than that.
I’m writing about it because I fail to believe that I am the only one suffering from post-graduate depression.
That’s right. Post-graduate depression.
The feeling of worthlessness and waste of life that happens after being out of graduate school for months, many months without a job or anything of value to show.
I even took a freaking unpaid internship. That’s what freshman do. Freshman, people seven years younger without any experience.
And still I am alive, sheltered, fed, sitting in this room dreading my loan debt, my lack of accomplishment, staring at my book that’s three-fourths done, not being able to finish it, to power-through to the end because it’s so so terrible.
I warn you, I haven’t reached the point of completely giving up. At least I’m still managing to get on my computer and blog. That end could be soon.
I was watching Netflix—this reality t.v. show, and this woman said that in your job, your career you’re basically selling yourself, hours of your own life, so it might as well be a job that you love. Something that makes you jump out of bed in the morning. Of course, she worked for a circus, but she made a good point (even though I don’t plan of learning how to swing on bars or do flips on horses any time soon).
Maybe that’s my biggest problem. I never really stopped to think if this was what I really wanted to do. I mean I’ve been writing publicly sine my sophomore year in high school. I fell in love with it when I realized my words helped connect people from all different cliques in life.
But is love enough?
How many people stay together when both of them are poor, broke, useless?
Can I stay with something that doesn’t support me financially?
I mean I hate capitalism more than the next gal, but here I am living in a capitalist society needing to pay for things...and the love of something may not be enough to keep us together.
And maybe it’s not so much love as familiarity.
For now it’s hard to tell. But I guess it’s good I’m unemployed so I don’t waste my life hours on something I don’t enjoy. (That’s what I'm going to tell myself anyway so I keep on keeping on.)
So I have just started this mini-detox. I pretty much can’t drink or eat anything that has flavor or chemicals in it. No coffee, tea, alcohol. No bulky raw food, no spicy food, no processed food, no salty food.
I’m left with carrots and brown rice.
Basically.
Because I’m so limited it makes me crave all that stuff so much more, especially salt.
But I am surprised I haven’t gotten a major headache from giving up coffee, I think it has to do with this water concoction I’m drinking: 2 liters of water, 1 peeled and sliced cucumber, 1 thinly sliced lemon, 12 mint leaves and 1 teaspoon of ginger.
I’m not really into drinking it because I’m not a big fan of cucumber and that’s what it tastes like, but I’m pretty sure the ginger is preventing that mega caffeine crash that would be happening if I had not been drinking the water concoction.
All in all, I’d suggest if you ever plan to give up caffeine to drink ginger-laced beverages throughout the detox. It’s much more pleasant than doing it alone, cold tofurky.
1.) The vote is from Playboy.2) There didn't really seem to be any standards for the decision-making; CU seemed to be selected based on pretty irrelevant things like the 4/20 "smoke-out" and being near mountains. Also they noted Medical Marijuana dispensaries; maybe people are getting pot that don't actually need it, but it's called "medical" marijuana for a reason and it's not for parties.3) Value. Being the #1 party school doesn't seem vital for resume building, in fact I would assume it would be harmful.