Monday, August 29, 2011

Don't Have Any Fun on my Watch.

I have to admit I'm a bit sad today.

Last night I put on the PrideFest After Party and it would have been really nice to see more familiar faces.

Of course I met a lot of new awesome folks--but I could have really used the support. I guess I'm just having a hard time understanding why it's so difficult for people to show up to stuff.

I think I might have like a masochistic personality or something. I put on events all the time and every time people act really excited about it prior and then...nothing.... and the worst part for me is that I KEEP DOING IT. I don't get it.

It's a lot of stress, a lot of energy, a lot of time. And then I get disappointed.

Again, I am really grateful for everyone who did come out and especially grateful for all the help I got--particularly from Ryan who ran Sound all night, amongst other things.

I guess I'm just trying to figure out if I should bother with it anymore. Not just the organizing of my own events but the attending of other events as well. It's like a real immature mental reaction--they don't come to mine, I don't go to theres'. It's lame.

Bitter. Would be a good word. But I don't want to be bitter. I just want everyone I know to come out and have a fun time.

What's wrong with me?

I woke up with three new bruises, one new bleeding cut, covered in glitter, hungry, with a headache and other people don't want that... why?

1 comment:

  1. Nothing's wrong with you. Sometimes people get too serious in their lives, for reasons both voluntary and involuntary, and forget what it is like to relax! You have the right attitude! :-)