I have to admit I'm a bit sad today.
Last night I put on the PrideFest After Party and it would have been really nice to see more familiar faces.
Of course I met a lot of new awesome folks--but I could have really used the support. I guess I'm just having a hard time understanding why it's so difficult for people to show up to stuff.
I think I might have like a masochistic personality or something. I put on events all the time and every time people act really excited about it prior and then...nothing.... and the worst part for me is that I KEEP DOING IT. I don't get it.
It's a lot of stress, a lot of energy, a lot of time. And then I get disappointed.
Again, I am really grateful for everyone who did come out and especially grateful for all the help I got--particularly from Ryan who ran Sound all night, amongst other things.
I guess I'm just trying to figure out if I should bother with it anymore. Not just the organizing of my own events but the attending of other events as well. It's like a real immature mental reaction--they don't come to mine, I don't go to theres'. It's lame.
Bitter. Would be a good word. But I don't want to be bitter. I just want everyone I know to come out and have a fun time.
What's wrong with me?
I woke up with three new bruises, one new bleeding cut, covered in glitter, hungry, with a headache and other people don't want that... why?
Nothing's wrong with you. Sometimes people get too serious in their lives, for reasons both voluntary and involuntary, and forget what it is like to relax! You have the right attitude! :-)
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